The Apology

Here's an apology to all the people who are waiting on an apology from the person that will never apologize. Here's an apology for all the pain, the hurt, heartache and so much more. Here's an apology because it wasn't your fault it was theirs, the monster -- he or she that took your innocence for granted and compromised everything you could have ever known. Here's an apology for the depression and suicide attempts that (s)he caused because they were too selfish to keep their hands to themselves.

So here I will say it!

I am here to apologize for the pain they caused you even if they are so capable of saying it themselves. I am here to apologize for them being the monsters they became because they may refuse to accept that is what they are. I apologize for them being the cause of your depression and for making you believe that killing yourself would be the only way out. Here I am, apologizing for the idiot that happened to be so selfish to become the monster that hid under your bed for all of those years.

Here's an apology that you may never receive that you will always be deserving of.

The apology, this apology is for you, because the fact that the individual that compromised your innocence, broke your heart, caused you so much pain, the monster that shows up so frequently in your nightmares decided to be just that, it's not your fault. Here's the apology for the one in the next room hearing your ever so silent cries and for your parents not realizing the signs that something was wrong. Even though it also isn't their fault because they had no knowledge of such a monster hiding so quietly under your bed. Here's the apology for nobody telling you that it was okay to speak out, and one for all the people who made it seem like being silent was the only way to deal with this. Here's an apology because no one taught you the rules of knowing the signs of a monster being so near. Here's an apology hoping that you forgive them -- not asking you to ever forget -- but to forgive them because the relationships you will encounter will be hard for you to maintain, and the depression will continue to hold you hostage.

Here is an apology hoping that you will forgive the ones that hurt you so that you will be okay because the forgiveness isn't for them but you.

- Bre